I'm only human

Sometimes I'm homesick

Sometimes I overreact

Sometimes I'm too loud

Sometimes I say things I want to retract 

Sometimes I'm too easily persuaded

Sometimes I hate myself

Sometimes I whine

Sometimes I take things too personally

Sometimes I come to school in the sweatshirt I slept in

Sometimes I'm a bad friend

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I'm in a bad mood

Sometimes I can't please everyone

But I am ALWAYS myself. 

I'm sick and tired of getting judged for it, ESPECIALLY by "friends". Friends who should never judge and always take your side. Tell me what I've done wrong, but don't give me consequences or tell me I need consequences, whether you think you know the whole situation or not. People are quick to judge, and I can't even remember the last time I had friends like that, probably because those people aren't really  true friends. 

I did something today that I'm honestly proud of myself for doing. I did something that honestly was one of the most illogical, irrational, and smartest things I've ever done. Why? Because it changed things. I am sorry, but I do not regret it. I overreacted, but I'm so glad I did. I didn't do it to get praised or to get unnecessary comments about, I did it because I was PISSED. It's a funny story, but it's not an important story. It's done, it's over with, and I'm sure it's probably the funniest story to be told.

I'm. Only. Human. I want to stop making mistakes. I want friends that won't judge me for the things I do. I want out of Cali, into Louisiana. I want to be a millionaire and a pet unicorn. I obviously want some things that will never happen, but life is life and you get used to things you know you can't have now, later, or unless I win the lottery and they breed rhinos and horses.

Life is life. You don't get out alive, so don't spend your life worrying about the things you can't control. Hope for the best, prepare for the douche bags.

Love & Creep,
Jess