Peace Pearls & Pretzels: One fine wire

I try so many times

but it's not taking me

and it seems so long ago

that I used to believe

and I'm so lost inside of my head

and crazy

but I cant get out of it

I'm just stumbling

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head

I'm juggling and my fears on fire

but I'm listening as it evolves in my head

I'm balancing on one fine wire

And I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

but It's frayed at both the ends

and I'm slow unraveling

Life plays so many games inside of me

and I've had some distant cries, following

and their entwined between the night and sun beams

I wish I were free from this pain in me

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head

I'm juggling and my fears on fire

but I'm listening as it evolves in my head

I'm balancing on one fine wire

And I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

I remember the time my balance was fine

and I was just walking on one fine wire

but it's frayed at both the ends

and I'm slow unraveling

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head

I'm juggling and my fears on fire

but I'm listening as it evolves in my head

I'm balancing on one fine wire

I'm blessed, very much so. Like I've said so many times before, I have friends all over the world (literally). In a year and some pocket change, I'll be on a plane to Europe with one to see another one! I have family, I have one house, but multiple HOMES, and so much more but sometimes life gets confusing. Trying to figure out in the next few months will be pretty.. impossible. I'm just gonna move to Italy and piss everyone off, I think. No one will be happy with that decision, but me. It might be wrong, but trying to please everyone is getting too tough for a 16 year old.

I hate making people mad (except you, Shabby:) and it seems like every decision I make, everyone feels the need to put their, good or bad, two cents in. Well, world. You don't need to. For some odd reason, God decided to give me an easily persuasive mentality about people and places and things and etc. Hearing infinity amount of these does not help. I don't know. I'm slowing getting more angered about this.

I've changed a lot since I've moved here. I think when I get home to Louisiana my friends and I will be equally shocked. I put on make-up now (awkward) and I think my outlook on things and life is much different. I'm still Jessie, the pervish creep who loves Route 44 Dr. Pepper's at Sonic's Happy Hour and riding all over Bossier until there's no more ice in my cup, but now I'm just Jessie the pervish creep who loves Route 44 Dr. Pepper's at Sonic's Happy Hour and riding all over Bossier until there's no more Sonic ice in my cup.. with eyeshadow and a new opinion on things. I can't wait for summer to get here already so I can put my new outlook to use. I literally get more excited every day. June 8th can't come too soon!

Tonight I had dinner (salad, fml) at Shabby's with her and Regina. Please enjoy pictures from our dinner date, and a video, too.