Do you have that one person that you can't imagine life without? That one person that you scream and yell at, but they always return to you with open arms and open ears? That person who undoubtedly, unconditionally loves you for who you are, under any circumstance? Then you must have yourself a Taylor.
Most people don't understand Taylor and I and our relationship. That's fine with me, though, because I don't even understand it. He's my strongest confidante, my boyfriend, my best friend, and my favorite nerd all wrapped up in one. I can tell him anything and everything, knowing he will not judge me for it. He's been through my dad's death, along with my many moves and new schools. When we stopped talking for weeks at a time, but needed him at the drop of a hat, I knew he would be there for me. He also can quote Star Wars and Step Brothers, word for word.
The funny thing about Taylor and I is that we've never met. We met through a very wonderful mutual friend who moved to Florida after living in Louisiana and going to the same school as me. He introduced Taylor and I on the phone on December 22nd, 2008 and we had our first private conversation December 26th, 2008. Being 14 and he only 15, our parents didn't feel confident letting us go see each other, which is completely understandable. 2 and a half years later and a friendship stronger than anything I could have ever imagined, we meet in 2 days.
A couple days ago, Taylor asked me, "In the beginning, when we started to have feelings for each other, did you think it would be a crush or end up like this?" I never imagined such an innocent beginning to have such a powerful future. People doubt us. People judge us. There are times when my own family couldn't believe in a faithful relationship since we never see each other. The thing is, there are times when Taylor and I were not together and we were with other people. Those people are what brought us back together. Why be with someone who could can kiss and hold and ultimately be in a physical relationship with anytime you want, but have no emotional relationship, when you can have someone perfect for you, but you just can't touch them? I choose option two.
I'm not going to see Taylor to have sex with the guy. I'm going to see Taylor because it's long overdue. I'm going to see Taylor to give him a big hug and thank him (with loads of tears) that he's been the only thing keeping me together. People tell me I'm strong. What people don't know is that when I'm getting weak, it's Taylor there to pick me up and tell me to keep going. He's everything I want in a best friend and boyfriend. A boy with morals and a love for God. A boy who laughs when I tell him the dumbest jokes and likes me more every time I send him a picture of a Star Wars pun. A boy who never lets me forget everything is going to be okay. He has the best qualities of all the men in my life. He has my brother Jacob's love of all things nerdy. He has my brother Joshuah's passion for sports. He has my step-dad's tenderness and thought process (aka he thinks before he speaks). And he loves me the way my daddy did: Unconditionally.
I know my brothers won't appreciate this because it's about a boy. And my daddy would be PISSED if he knew I associated with people of the opposite sex. But, I guess I realized I'm growing up and Taylor helped with that. He's been with me through the majority of my teenage years, when things were the best and the worst. And I guess I owe it to him to say everything I said and to say I can't wait to meet you!
Love & Creep,
Jess
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